A more serious note.

If you are sensitive to depression, suicide and/or self harm, then please, click off this journal.


Okay. I wanted to talk about depression and suicide for quite a while now, but didn't know how to approach the matter. I was told some news recently and that has given me a reason to post this to express how subtle it can be, then it leads to something more severe depending on how you type something.

To start off with, depression. I know so many people who suffer depression. My friend attempted suicide because of his depression. There are a lot of users on DA who suffer depression. Some of those people will just act like 'normal' users on here unless their name is obvious or their art is. Some users will turn to hate. I don't know why they would do this but they do. Sometimes they lose complete control over themselves and they'll do something they'll regret or they will try to hurt other people. Unfortunately, the people who send hate get hate in return, publicly or privately. Its true, that have no right to tell someone to go kill themselves or to say that something looks traced when it isn't. But that gives YOU no right to say the exact thing in return. Only because somebody doesn't like a piece of work or they have done something horrible, doesn't mean they have lost their humanity. They are still human, regardless of what they have said or done. If they have raped someone and have apologised for their actions, they deserve to have a second chance. Sure. It doesn't undo the mental trauma done to the victim, but if they were truly sorry, don't they deserve a second chance? I may be seeming rather soft towards second chances, but everybody deserves a second chance.

Secondly, self harm. Self harm is never the answer and I know this. If you ever feel like you are worth nothing, you're not. You are worth something to someone. You are worth everything to somebody who cares deeply for you. People hurt themselves because they feel as if they don't have a place anymore or they need a distraction from their pain. But that only causes more pain. If somebody has sent you hate or has said you have traced your artwork, that gives you, nor your watchers, any right to kill themselves or say they are cancer.

Lastly, the hardest topic, suicide. Suicide is never the right way out of pain. As I said earlier, my friend nearly killed himself earlier this year. If you are suffering, please, I beg of you, contact someone. A friend, family member or even someone you know online, please, talk to them. Let out your emotions and they will listen because they care. They care so much about you. It may not seem it or show it, but they care so much about you. You mean everything to them. And they mean everything to you. I know a few people who have killed themselves, and I will always carry them in my heart. I may not have known them, but it impacts so many people. It made me think. I didn't know these people, so why do I feel like I knew them? That's how it impacts you. People who don't even know you will care if you killed yourself. They will be sad. I have cried because of people killing themselves. I cried because they were suffering and they didn't want to burden people with their problems. It isn't easy telling people how you feel. It really isn't. But if you do, you will feel so much better afterwards. If I want to let my emotions out, I know that there are people willing to listen to me, even if I don't want to. You will break down sometimes because of how much it hurts or how much it has been eating you away. Please, tell someone. Talk to someone close. They will listen, even if you think they wont, they will. You may think that nobody cares, but they care about you. I care about you. You may not know me or you've given me a llama, but I care deeply.


If you ever need to talk, I am almost available all the time. If you send me a note and I don't reply straight away, I am most likely sleeping or at school. I return to school September 6th. Please understand what I am trying to get across here. This goes the same for autism. If somebody says they are autistic, respect the fact they are. They aren't making a piss-poor excuse to stop hate.


Now there is a purpose behind all of this. And that is because I want to make a change in this world. May it be through art, YouTube or simple gestures, I want to make a difference and I want to make people happy. I want to help people with their suffering. I hate seeing people suffer and that's what hurts me the most. I want this to happen. Please, note me if you are suffering at all. I will listen to everything you have to say and I will NEVER judge you. I only judge people based on how they treat other people.


If you have read to the end, thank you for taking the time to read this. If you need to talk, send me a note and I'll get back to you as soon as I can. I will listen to everything you have to say.


Thank you.