Well!

Its time for that huge, serious, important journal that happens at least once a year. 

Where to start?

So, I've started college and made some new friends who I respect, except a few certain people who I've recently left because of how they treated me and how they were behaving. I will admit that I haven't been the greatest friend (If anything, I'm the shittiest friend anyone could have) but I tried to make plans and arrangements. Eh. I won't go into any more detail about it. 

Sooooooo, the more important stuff. 

My mental health has...I don't even know. Its been good at some points...but mostly bad ahah. I've been recently diagnosed with anxiety and I'm actually shaking writing this hah. I had an anxiety attack when round at my friend's house. It's been a really rough year for me. Long story short...I'm permanently scarred. I'm not proud or happy with what I have done, but I've been clean for about two months now? I found friends who care for me and my parents found out so I now realize that people really care about me. At the point when I was in a dark place, I can really say that my life sucked, but that was because my judgment of it was clouded by mental illness. I am slowly getting better though. That's one of the reasons I haven't been active as much I would've like to have been. 

And I'm running out of ideas.

I mean, I draw all the time, but its mostly sketches that I abandon. I really need ideas so could some of you send me some...please?

Sorry haha. 

But, yeah. 2017 was a shit year. So was 2016.